Post by raisangrrl on Jan 24, 2003 17:14:43 GMT -5
i'm about fed up with everything in my life being a fucking struggle! the online class that i should be taking right now, i can't take. why? because i still haven't gotten a bill. they sent it out 2 days before we could unregister, but here i am waiting. i was told i still had to pay for the class even though i can't get into the class to do anything! and why can't i? because i can't get a loan, i don't work, my husband does. and i have to have this money by TUESDAY!!!! $600, or more like $1000 because i haven't gotten the form for proof of residecny either. the class has already started, i'm a week behind on assignments. i don't know how the fuck we're going to do this, and i can't unregister because it's too late.
and to top it all off, my car sucks, i was stuck in the doctors parking lot for half an hour because my car just won't start, won't turn over, nothing. i had to have my friends push the car to pop start it. which it did (thankfully), but i'm sure it won't tonight when we need it.
my doctor wants me to stop drinking coffee for a few days (if you really want to know, i have been having some tenderness on my boob ;D, and she wants to be sure there's nothing wrong). i have to get bloodwork done to make sure i'm really having anxiety attacks. my kidneys have been flaring up so bad, there are times i can't move. my head has been spinning for days, and i've almost fainted 5 times this week. i hate having to divulge information about things that have happened in my past to doctors who ask so many questions that i'm crying by the time their done. there are just some things i really don't want to ever have to remember in my life, ever again. i just don't want to have to relive them, and it's like i have to every fucking day.
i can't take this stress!!!!!!
and to top it all off, my car sucks, i was stuck in the doctors parking lot for half an hour because my car just won't start, won't turn over, nothing. i had to have my friends push the car to pop start it. which it did (thankfully), but i'm sure it won't tonight when we need it.
my doctor wants me to stop drinking coffee for a few days (if you really want to know, i have been having some tenderness on my boob ;D, and she wants to be sure there's nothing wrong). i have to get bloodwork done to make sure i'm really having anxiety attacks. my kidneys have been flaring up so bad, there are times i can't move. my head has been spinning for days, and i've almost fainted 5 times this week. i hate having to divulge information about things that have happened in my past to doctors who ask so many questions that i'm crying by the time their done. there are just some things i really don't want to ever have to remember in my life, ever again. i just don't want to have to relive them, and it's like i have to every fucking day.
i can't take this stress!!!!!!
Not fun. 
