new years

[Ben]

whatcha all doing?

I just wanna go somewhere, have a few quite drinks and play some pool. had too many big nights lately, dont wanna do it again.

[toomanyablefires]

Hmm. Not drinking. Probably watching movies, taking pictures and making things with them. I took my tree down today and after taking down the decorations, I leaned it against the rails on my back deck. It's so pretty. I'm going to make bird feeders to put on it. That's my New Year's Eve excitement.

I luckily have today off my new job, but tomorrow I have to work and it was such a surprise to them that I didn't mind coming in at 9. I guess most people have hangovers on New Years Day. Especially some of these young girls that are on methadone for rehab. I thought there was only one girl (she got fired, the day I started though. Ironically.), but now there's another one. It's funny because she had out her pamplet from NA reading it off to everyone. I find the thought of any SORT of meeting more stress than it's worth. So many people I've seen (which is really just young girls in their late teens, 20's) give the impression that it's as a status symbol to be in rehab and "on methadone". I feel dirty listening to these conversations, because I'm just as bad as these people, or worse, since I don't even go to a meeting, status symbol or otherwise. I usually only say, if people ask, that I don't drink any more. But that in itself is a stigma, and that feels uncomfortable.

But yeah, I'm supposed to be considering becoming the head of the department, (which is housekeeping at a nice bed and breakfast), but I don't know about working in an authority postion with these people. I barely have the lay of the land yet.

Wow, that was a rediculous amount of rambling. Nevermind.

I need to change my sig soon. I also need to take more photos. We get another big snow storm- yay! But the sun keeps going away to my utter annoyance.... ah well.

[♪Carly♪]

That's funny. NOT going to a meeting, for me, is more stress than it's worth.

I'm just hanging out with my friend Heather and watching movies and eating ice cream. lol... We're cool. I'm just really trying to not be angry about not being able to drink.

[Aims]

We just had a bbq at home, family and a few friends. One of my cousins and his two little girls came up here for christmas and were still around so it was good seeing them again.
Took lots of silly photos, a few videos of the drunk old people dancing.. etc.
Was totally over it by around 2ish when I wanted to go to bed but the kids were all alseep in each of the bedrooms so I had to wait for everyone to go home first.

I'm tired. Might go watch dvds soon, in a nice dark room downstairs where it's not so warm.