Post by Julie on Apr 18, 2005 20:42:31 GMT -5
Spark
she's addicted to nicotine patches . she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark . 6.58 are you sure where my spark is
here .
here . here
she's convinced she could hold back a glacier . but she couldn't keep Baby alive
doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere here
say you don't want it again . and again but you don't really mean it
you say you dont' want it . this circus we're in
but you don't you don't really mean it you don't really mean it
if the Divine master plan is perfection . maybe next I'll give Judas a try
trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin here
you say you don't want it again . and again but you don't really mean it
you say you don't want it . this circus we're in
but you don't youd ont' really mean it you don't really mean it
how many fates turn around in the overtime
ballerinas that have fins that you'll never find
you thought that you were the bomb yeah well so did i
say you don't want it . say youd ont' want it . say you don't want it again
and again but you don't really mean it
say you don't want it . this circus we're in
but you don't you don't really mean it you don't really mean it
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark
6.58 are you sure where my spark is here
This is about the missing part of a woman's body when she miscarries. When you carry life and it dies inside of you, that horror lives with you forever. It's quite horrible to even imagine that kind of feeling. The unfairness of it all. It's relation to "Cruel" as well with the fact that someone who does not deserve to have life taken away from them is getting this awful treatment. After 3 miscarriages I would assume she felt failed in the reproductive area and it's very saddening and frustrating. She already lost 3 sparks and she's fearing the disappointment for the next to come. She's also realizing that she is strong in so many aspects, but yet she cannot keep her goal of mothering...until later obviously.
Here's Tori's description of it:
"y'know, once you've felt life in your body, you can't go back to having been a woman that's never carried life. The other thing is feeling something dying inside you and you're still alive. Obviously when it was happening, it was already over, but in my mind, you don't know that it's over yet. You're doing anything, thinking, Oh God, maybe if I put a cork up myself, maybe it'll keep this little life in. That's why in Spark, I say, 'She's convinced she could hold back a glacier/But she couldn't keep baby alive.' You just start going insane. There's nothing you can do, so so you surrender and then... start again."
-- Tori; Q Magazine, May 1998
"Spark is about when I miscarried, in 1996. I was three months pregnant and very excited. All of a sudden I woke up one morning and started to feel bad. The songs started coming soon after. I was really angry at God. Going into a shopping mall and seeing some woman knock the head off her child, I'm going - 'So this is fair?' I don't know where the spirit went, whether she picked another mummy, like, "OK, choose her, then! Hope you're tone deaf!"
Q: One last question. Who is the ice cream assassin?
T: Who do you think that is?
Q: I have no idea
T: Well, people have been praying to him for a very long time and more wars have been fought in his name. The big guy. Think about it.
she's addicted to nicotine patches . she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark . 6.58 are you sure where my spark is
here .
here . here
she's convinced she could hold back a glacier . but she couldn't keep Baby alive
doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere here
say you don't want it again . and again but you don't really mean it
you say you dont' want it . this circus we're in
but you don't you don't really mean it you don't really mean it
if the Divine master plan is perfection . maybe next I'll give Judas a try
trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin here
you say you don't want it again . and again but you don't really mean it
you say you don't want it . this circus we're in
but you don't youd ont' really mean it you don't really mean it
how many fates turn around in the overtime
ballerinas that have fins that you'll never find
you thought that you were the bomb yeah well so did i
say you don't want it . say youd ont' want it . say you don't want it again
and again but you don't really mean it
say you don't want it . this circus we're in
but you don't you don't really mean it you don't really mean it
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark
6.58 are you sure where my spark is here
This is about the missing part of a woman's body when she miscarries. When you carry life and it dies inside of you, that horror lives with you forever. It's quite horrible to even imagine that kind of feeling. The unfairness of it all. It's relation to "Cruel" as well with the fact that someone who does not deserve to have life taken away from them is getting this awful treatment. After 3 miscarriages I would assume she felt failed in the reproductive area and it's very saddening and frustrating. She already lost 3 sparks and she's fearing the disappointment for the next to come. She's also realizing that she is strong in so many aspects, but yet she cannot keep her goal of mothering...until later obviously.
Here's Tori's description of it:
"y'know, once you've felt life in your body, you can't go back to having been a woman that's never carried life. The other thing is feeling something dying inside you and you're still alive. Obviously when it was happening, it was already over, but in my mind, you don't know that it's over yet. You're doing anything, thinking, Oh God, maybe if I put a cork up myself, maybe it'll keep this little life in. That's why in Spark, I say, 'She's convinced she could hold back a glacier/But she couldn't keep baby alive.' You just start going insane. There's nothing you can do, so so you surrender and then... start again."
-- Tori; Q Magazine, May 1998
"Spark is about when I miscarried, in 1996. I was three months pregnant and very excited. All of a sudden I woke up one morning and started to feel bad. The songs started coming soon after. I was really angry at God. Going into a shopping mall and seeing some woman knock the head off her child, I'm going - 'So this is fair?' I don't know where the spirit went, whether she picked another mummy, like, "OK, choose her, then! Hope you're tone deaf!"
Q: One last question. Who is the ice cream assassin?
T: Who do you think that is?
Q: I have no idea
T: Well, people have been praying to him for a very long time and more wars have been fought in his name. The big guy. Think about it.
